In life, there are things you want to do, things you need to do and things other people want you to do. My hobby is computers (as you will know) and guitaring…

It pisses you off when members of my family take the mick out of my hobbies.. just because I spend alot of time on the computer.. friends seem not to care what I do, as long as Im happy and I like that.

Recently I have been putting alot of work into IRC, more than ever even.. and this means alot of my time is taken up.

Maybe Im just a saddo, who needs to get a life.. maybe i sit here writing this and people thing “what an idiot” and laugh..

I found out one of my friends has gone to the US without tellin me or other close friends.. and now i think he hates me.

I will write more, but i dont want to depress you too much…

Sorry,

Niall

Okay, sorry for the random title.

I’ve been thinking today, about life.. and I came across this quote:

“Expecting life to treat you well because you are a good person is like expecting an angry bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian.”
— Shari R. Barr

I think I am a good person, people tell me Im a good person.. but not alot good happens for me :/ – maybe I do get the odd good thing.. but It doesnt happen often and most good things lead to an even worse thing.

At the moment, I want somebody to love – but I probably aint going to get that so I’ll just keep on living…

Another thing that got me thinking was that at first, we dont exist, then, we exist and then we dont exist again – it is as if someone is disturbing us from our non-existance, why were we put here? thats what I want to know…

Oh well, I’ll keep going along with it and hope that something good will happen soon

“Expecting life to treat you well because you are a good person is like expecting an angry bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian.” — Shari R. Barr

I have been talking to Willem on msn and he said this:

Willem     says:
*what do you do if you want to die?
(*)(8)    i   Niall    95    .com (B)(D) says:
*erm…
*if you really dont want to live anymore
*kill yourself… thats all i can say
*no point in just being an existance
*your either living, or your just an existance
Willem     says:
*what do you mean with an existance?
(*)(8)    i   Niall    95    .com (B)(D) says:
*if you are an existance.. your not living, but your not dead
*as in, you have no reason of life
Willem     says:
*whats your reason in life?
(*)(8)    i   Niall    95    .com (B)(D) says:
*”something good will happen some day….”
*thats my motto

Willem     says:

*what do you do if you want to die?

(*)(8)    i   Niall    95    .com (B)(D) says:

*erm…

*if you really dont want to live anymore

*kill yourself… thats all i can say

*no point in just being an existance

*your either living, or your just an existance

Willem     says:

*what do you mean with an existance?

(*)(8)    i   Niall    95    .com (B)(D) says:

*if you are an existance.. your not living, but your not dead

*as in, you have no reason of life

Willem     says:

*whats your reason in life?

(*)(8)    i   Niall    95    .com (B)(D) says:

*”something good will happen some day….”

*thats my motto

So yh, thats why I dont go and kill myself, cuz no matter how much shit i go through, i put up with it because you have to think that something good will happen. That is my will to live, and I assure you – the day I stop thinking that I WILL kill myself..

this is an apology for everyone who visits this site or used to visit my LJ or whatever. Im sorry for tellin you all about the same depressing shit all the time. I will try and write about the good aspects of my life as well y’know…