K, the title is quoted from the song “Beautiful” by Eminem, which is a brilliant song which you should listen to the lyrics from… http://www.metrolyrics.com/beautiful-lyrics-eminem.html
Over the last few months, I’ve learnt that people can’t accept my way of life, they see something that is different and immediately assume that it’s wrong. As far as i’m concerned, i’m winning. I’m Niall Davies, you aint gonna fuck with me. You may take me down, but i’ll go down fighting… and I’ll get back up again. I don’t easily disapeer.
My main point is that people are scared to stand up to the suits, just because people have posh titles, just because people have letters on the end of their name, when I say fuck it, if they can’t respect me, I don’t respect them. Now people will say “that’s unethical”, “that’s wrong”, “that’s crazy”. And to the people who think that, I give a big FUCK YOU. Because at the end of the day, this is my way of life. If you see something wrong with it, that’s your problem, not mine.
People moan about things all the time, and don’t do ANYTHING about it. And this pisses me off, i’m fed up of threats and this is why I make promises and not threats. I will stand up to anything I believe, and I WILL get heard, no matter how I have to do it. Because I’ve got nothing to lose. Let me give you a very recent example of this…
I had an argument with my headteacher yesterday, because one of the teachers confiscated my mobile phone. I explained (truthfully) that it was an accident and that it came on in my pocket and made a noise. Now, most people at this point would use common sense and accept that that happens, and give me my phone back. But she said that I couldn’t have it until my parents rang in to confirm. I told her that this was not possible as my parents work until 8pm, and she said that I couldn’t have my phone until the next day. I then asked her again to give me my phone, and she refused again, and as you can tell by this point I got annoyed, and told her to “fuck off”. I think it’s funny that when I later had to meet with her with my nan she changed the story. My nan later said that my headteacher didn’t address the issues as she should. I started quoting possible consequences and actual Ofsted regulations to her and she couldn’t handle it. She then took the high ground and said that she could get the police in, or could exclude me, or be put in the quiet room. And I told her to do it. She didn’t. When I spoke to her today, she changed her story again saying that I could’ve approached her nicely (which I actually did) and spoke to her “as an adult”. At the time, as witnesses will say it didn’t seem that the subject was up for discussion, and at no time in my school does anything get up for discussion. She even threw me out of her office when I said that her system wasn’t working. The reason I said that was because she said that the school council were discussing things with forms, and i’ve never discussed anything. Surely she isn’t stupid enough to think how she wants things to happen actually happens? it isn’t a perfect world. But yeah, essentially, I’m still winning. She told me she wants my input on a new “democratic” system for the school… and i’m not gonna waste this opportunity. She practically backed down from me because I think she knows that I aint going to give up, no matter what. We could discuss it til 4am but I’m not going to agree with her. As far as I’m concerned, my phone is my property and taking it off me is stealing. Also, if id’ve been abducted by some kind of paedophile on the way home then it would’ve come into the papers that my headteacher confiscated my phone and so I couldn’t contact the police, or my parents. It would’ve looked good for her wouldn’t it. The “criminal damage” that she was on about involving the police for was me throwing some bins around…
At the end of the day the message people need to learn from me is, that I’m never done. You’re never going to make me back down. You fuck with me, and I’m gonna fuck with you. People can’t accept my personality, and like I said if you can’t, that’s your problem, so fuck off… Don’t try to get me to change or say something I don’t want to say. Because I won’t.
I’m gonna be following this up soon, and you know what, I don’t give a shit about any consequences that anyone throws at me… at the end of the day, You can throw me to the ground, but I will get back up and fight. The world needs people like me, without people like me, nothing would ever get done and we’d all do as we said and live in dictatorships, where the police rule the country, where you’re not even allowed to smoke in your own houses, and where we’re on camera everywhere, literally in our own bedrooms.